Getting On Track
There are many things I want to happen. There are also many ways for me to get on track, and get my life back. This should be a good start for me. So here goes:
I want to work again.
I want to be happy and healthy again.
I want to lose weight.
I want to be able to support myself.
I want to get on with my life and stop living in the past.
I want to exercise daily.
I want to read on a regular basis.
I want to start having my friends around more.
I want to be able to think clearly and make good decisions without worrying my emotions made me make the wrong one.
I want to get outside more whether it's to play sports or just relax on my back deck.
I want to get out of the house more. Instead of sitting home all the time being so damn depressed and stressed.
I am sure I will add to the list often. There is no way I can remember everything all at once. For many reasons. One I can't think straight as much as I would like, and another it's late and I am tired. This is important to me and I wanted to get it started.
Now moving on to what I can do to make these things happen:
Start therapy again. Which will help with everything I mentioned above that is emotional. Whether it's stress, depression or even thinking more clearly. Getting in therapy will also help me get the job I need so badly. That is a big thing.
Start believing in myself. Which will help me get out more. Get things done instead of let things pass me by.
Focusing on the positive not the negative.
Stop worrying about things before they happen because they may not, and I worried for nothing. Got upset for nothing.
Stop expecting the worse.
Stop saying why me and if I can. Start saying when I do it. Why me because I am tough and I can take it where someone else may not be as strong.
Be thankful I am alive.
Join a Church/chose a religion.
Rally my friends around me and ask for help instead of expecting people to know what I need.
Be thankful for what I have instead of what I do not.
Start working and then a lot of what I want to happen will fall into place. From supporting myself, and being able to help out.
Start my diet and stick to it and that means the exercise as well. Just find things to motivate me to do it. Whether it's picture's of me when I was thin, or supportive things from friends, or things I have found on my own.
Don't change the way I act to seem different around certain people. Always be myself and if that day I am having a rough time don't hide it and make myself feel even worse later.
I think I have a good start going here. I will post this now and probably add to it often. No need to write a hundred entries when I can update this one with things I want and how I want to get them. When things get rolling I am sure I will post very often. Current Mood: optimistic